Weirdly or perhaps not so weirdly I have lived with the exact same fears all my life too. It is good therefore to read a friend share her experience of life on the other side, for when the time comes…I like the idea of astonishment at the pleasure of liberation…
I know it's different, but I think I felt very similarly when I first went to college, and then again when I lived alone briefly when I took a job in Europe. This kind-of freedom of not having to be concerned that what I do might affect other people, at least in an immediate capacity. Being abandoned gave opportunity to thrilling (not-so-reckless) abandon :) I really like how you describe your joys and I'm glad you're doing well^^
I wonder whether in some blindly apprehensive way this is what people who don't want to have children are getting at. Something about consequencelessness....
while my life is very different to yours, i do live on the same island though, my fear of abandonment is alive, strong and kicking, so to read how you are managing it gives me great comfort. thank you for sharing how this experience is for you.
Life is one big surprise.
And another one I forgot:
I get to remember my dreams...
sorry everyone, the audio/voice over function kept cutting out halfway through and my dog insisted that I give up and take him for a walk...aah, tech!
Weirdly or perhaps not so weirdly I have lived with the exact same fears all my life too. It is good therefore to read a friend share her experience of life on the other side, for when the time comes…I like the idea of astonishment at the pleasure of liberation…
Mabe it's something about feeling unencumbered...
Fabulous, Helen. I’m going to raise a glass to you!
I know it's different, but I think I felt very similarly when I first went to college, and then again when I lived alone briefly when I took a job in Europe. This kind-of freedom of not having to be concerned that what I do might affect other people, at least in an immediate capacity. Being abandoned gave opportunity to thrilling (not-so-reckless) abandon :) I really like how you describe your joys and I'm glad you're doing well^^
I wonder whether in some blindly apprehensive way this is what people who don't want to have children are getting at. Something about consequencelessness....
while my life is very different to yours, i do live on the same island though, my fear of abandonment is alive, strong and kicking, so to read how you are managing it gives me great comfort. thank you for sharing how this experience is for you.
cheers Kate
everyone's island is a different island! thanks for reading kate, helen